I want to thank you all for your encouraging words. I owe some of you emails, and will do that soon. I apologize for my previous post. It really was a giant pity party to myself. Thankfully, I am over it now :). After a week of feeling extremely low, I realized I was being ridiculous. God doesn't want me to act like that. I need to trust Him. To explain our adoption situation, the adoption plans were put on hold because of finances, and because of Jeff's job situation. His company was bought out about 2 weeks ago, which could be either good or bad. It could put his job, and everyone elses at the company in jeopardy. He has been in this situation twice before. One company he worked for was bought out, and they got rid of most of the employees and started over. The other company that he worked for that was bought out ended up keeping the employees. We are praying hard that they keep all of the employees at his company. He is feeling an urgency to go back to school to finish his business degree, and get out of engineering completely. Sales jobs are a lot easier to find than engineering jobs. If he does go back to school, the money that we have saved so far for the adoption would need to go to that. That is why we aren't sure we will be able to do the adoption.
I have been brainstorming, trying to figure out ways I can help the situation. Jeff has always wanted me to write a book. That is actually what I am doing! I started it yesterday, and it is going to be a Kindle book. With a Kindle book, it can be read on any device, even a PC, as long as you download the free Kindle app. I am writing a gluten free/casein free/soy free cookbook. Then I plan on promoting it on autism websites where the diet is very popular. Kindle publishes for free as long as I set the price low (it will be $2.99). They take a percentage of the profits, and I get the rest. I have been cooking the gfcfsf way for a long time now, and have been daily tweaking regular recipes to make them gfcfsf. Because Evie and I have to eat this way, it has been a goal of mine to copycat recipes that taste great. So far, the book will have over 100 recipes. I am excited about that! I didn't realize I had come up with that many! If I can make enough money, it will help to pay for the adoption and Jeff's schooling too. That is my goal. I am going to be busy these next few months! My plan is to write at least 20 recipes a week in the book. I am going to have to make a lot of these recipes first, because I tend to just throw ingredients in without measuring. Jeff was happy to hear that I needed to make all the dessert recipes :). I am excited, and hopeful. It may be a long shot, but it may be a huge answer to prayer for us!
5 comments:
Wow I'm looking forward to that book. I hope you are successful.
I never thought you were having a pity party but instead had a valid reason for grieving. It's not easy what you're going through and sometimes it's so hard to know what to do. I've been praying for you and will continue to do so.
The recipe book sounds interesting. I know that my family would not be upset either if I had to test trial dessert recipes every night!
Looking forward to the book! Need a taste tester?
We are praying for you!
Joyce
I'm sorry I didn't see your previous post sooner; I've been having my own "pity party", I'm afraid, about potential health problems, and have been in deep research mode and stuck in my head.
I agree with what Jules said, and I didn't see your post as a pity party whatsoever. I can understand wanting another child; I always did too. But it wasn't meant for me for whatever reason. At first I wasn't happy about it, then just accepted it - since I really had no choice. It turns out that my son would have wanted a sibling, but it was no biggie for him when it didn't happen. He turned out to be the most unspoiled child ever and is now a wonderful husband and father. It worked out just fine. :)
The cookbook idea is a great one! In fact, I'm quite excited and would love to get one when you're finished! My new diet prevents me from eating any grains (like rice!) right now though, so I'm not sure what recipes I'll be able to use, but I will eventually be able to get back to some grains, I think.
I hope Jeff stays where he is at his job; I totally understand that sort of insecurity and wondering what the future might hold. Mike and I are still struggling here. So far, so good, but nothing is certain yet.
Take care Jen :)
SM - Thanks! I am praying that it does well!
Jules - Thank you for what you wrote. It has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster, to say the least. I know God has a plan, although I am not sure what it is yet!
Joyce - Thanks so much for your prayers! I'm sure you guys will get to taste test some of the recipes :).
April - I'm sorry to read about your health issues going on :(. I haven't had a chance to comment yet on your blog. It is nice to know that someone understands about the only child thing. It is hard for others to understand. From what I can tell, your son seems like he turned out awesome! And now you have sweet little Margot :).
I hope the cookbook helps a lot of people. I use a lot of "pseudo grains", like quinoa, buckwheat, amaranth, millet, almond flour, etc. Technically they aren't grains, they are seeds. I know you mentioned that you can't have quinoa at first. Can you have any of the other ones? I hope the new diet goes well for you! Take care!
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