Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Wanting a change
I haven't blogged in awhile! I have been busy with homeschooling, and I haven't been very chatty lately. I'm not sure why. I have been going through a phase where I am really wanting a change. I feel like I have changed a lot in who I am on the inside, and I feel that God is helping me to become more of what He wants me to be in that way. It's the outside though that I feel stuck. When I look in the mirror, I just think I look old and frumpy. I asked my hubby the other day if I looked old and frumpy, and he laughed! That is not the response I wanted. He clarified that he definitely didn't think I looked frumpy and old. I keep looking at pictures of me, and I basically have had the same hairstyle for the past 10 years. I wear it in a lot of different updos, but I am still feeling like I am in a hair rut. What really gets to me is the reaction I get from people when I tell them that I am thinking about cutting my hair. Instead of, "Oh no, you shouldn't do that", I get encouragement to cut it! I'm trying to give it the 2 week rule, where I wait 2 weeks to do anything drastic. It has been driving me crazy lately that I have to wear it up often. The other day I was outside with Evie, and we were playing basketball. My hair got in the way, and I had to stop and put it up. It seems like I am always having to put it up. Maybe that wouldn't change unless I cut it short, which I don't plan to do. I'm just wanting to feel young and hip, and I see some really cool styles that I really like and wonder how I would look with one of those styles. I'm not going to jump into anything right now. I'm going to give it 2 weeks to think about it.